I made it to round 2 of Seventeen Magazine's Freshman 15!
I need ideas for a video! It can’t be over a minute! I thought about either dancing with a friend and putting stuff about me on screen… then I thought about speaking French with the translation on screen
So I decided that after my first year or two, if I still have absolutely no idea what I want to go to do with my life, I'll just settle and be an art teacher or something... Ha, I won't like it, but it's something...
At first I wasn’t really sure if I wanted to date him because I’m not sure of what’s gonna happen at the end of the summer or if I’d be able to deal with the distance. But I’m gonna try it. It’s not like he’s goin out of the country or out of the state… We’ll be home on breaks or maybe if we can come home some weekends, we will… Absence makes the heart grow fonder, doesn’t it???
So I’ve been reading about orgasms. I feel like such a nerd for this… But apparently I have performance anxiety. I already knew it wasn’t the guys; they get off just fine. It’s all in my head. I believe I psych myself out. It’s like I can’t get all the way horny or something. And when it comes time to do the do, my mind tends to wander. “What do I look like, how do I sound, is he enjoying himself, i have to have an O…” stuff like that…. I know it’s all psychological for me.
I’m just gonna have to change my thought process, calm down, and stop being so anxious. And I need to tell my guy what I like. I tend to not do that….
I never told you about this guy I’ve been coolin with recently. Well, I met him about 2-3wks ago when a friend of mine forced me to go to a party. It was me her, him (the driver), and his cousin. She told me the other guy liked me. I was just like “oh…” I didn’t really pay much attention to either of them at the time, I was trying to find a reason to not go out, b/c I didn’t feel like it.
Well, we got to the party, & they didn’t wanna go in just yet. Me & my friend just kinda whatever’d them and went inside. Later on, he (driver) came in. I danced with him a little, but this other guy started gettin all up on me later & me & that guy danced a lot for the rest of the night. Lol, don’t worry, he wasn’t left alone; some girl was all up on him too for most of the night. Anyway, the three of us had fun & afterward on the way home, June gave me his number. We’ve been coolin it ever since.
I really like him, yall. He really likes me, too. We’re just afraid of what’s gonna happen at the end of the summer. We’re both goin to opposite ends of the state. I’m goin close to the coast & he’s goin up north.
I’m shocked that I like him or gave it up in this short amount of time. Lol, well, I said I wanted a summer romance…. I didn’t think I’d actually kinda want it to last on after that, too… Ugh, what am I gonna do???
Well, the good news is that I didn’t fake it this time. I didn’t come, but I didn’t fake it. Usually I always faked an O. This time I didn’t. But lemme tell yall…. In my neighborhood, there’s this peeeeerfect spot on a big hill behind the playground. At night, it all shaded & close to the woods & under the stars. It was so pretty. All we need it some kind of blanket or something to put over the grass…
So last saturday, I had to work from 6-10 (what a coincidence, since I’ve never really had to stay that late before), because there was a fair here that comes every summer for about 3-4 days. I (surprisingly) got off in time to go, so I went with this guy I’ve been hangin out with a lot lately. Well, after the fair, we were hangin out outside sittin in the van, we were in the backseat & his cousin & her hubby were in the front seat smoking. He had a pretty nice sized bottle of green apple vodka, & filled up the cup of death. Well, first I drunk most of what was left out of the bottle, then I drank about 88% of what was in the CoD. I wasn’t drinkin slow either.. lol, can you say WAAAAASTEED… I don’t even feel like goin into what all they told me happened. I know my head connected with a car a couple times…
Hehehe… lesson learned…. I’m only limiting myself to one cup from now on.
OMG! I actually felt the scissors going on my hair!!
I usually don’t re-blog these things but this is canny trippy
OMG OMG OMG OMG FUCKING TRIPPYYYYY !!
FUCKING HELL! THAT’S AWESOME/WEIRD/SCARY/INSANE!
I twitched so many times. Oh my god.
OMG ME TOO.
One of the coolest things I’ve experienced
Wow, this was awesome
that whisper at the end got me
awesome. i liked when he was walking around the room and it really feels as if someone is walking…around…the room…like just by listening you know where he should be. crazy. there should be a whole bunch of these each with different experiences. make it happen. *snaps fingers*
Omigosh! I felt the freakin clippers! This was awsome
I dub this summer the summer of firsts! Here's my 2k11 fuck it list before I go off to college.
So I’ve been hearing this term “fuck it” list being thrown around on the internet. I decided to make one of my own. I think I’ll do this every summer. Right now I’m thinkin ‘I’ve graduated high school, so you know what, fuck it! Let me get all this out of the way before college.’ Anything I don’t accomplish this summer will be added to next summer’s list. I wanted at least 50 items, but I couldn’t think of 50, so I’ll update this list as I think of more. If you have any ideas, I’d be so greatful :-)
 get faded
 have a hook-up/ summer fling
 throw away everything I’m not taking to college with me
 lose at least 15 lbs
 sled down a flight of stairs on a mattress
 learn how to braid my hair
[x] kiss a girl
 play in the playland at McDonald’s (even though I hate that place since I work there)
 Camp out in my backyard
 ride a scary ride at a fair
 make a silly video with my friends
[x] get my septum pierced
 get at least one more tattoo
[x] go out to dinner alone
 try an exotic dish I’ve never had.
 have a bonfire
 make at least 3 new friends at my college orientation
 go skinny dipping
 watch “The Hangover”
 play spin the bottle/7 mins. in heaven
 steal some sort of traffic sign
 have my fortune told
 Be comfortable in my own skin/body
[x] inhale a can of duster
 do some stupid shit and film it, like on Jackass
 lay out on the roof
 hula hoop on the roof
 meet a complete stranger and flirt with them in a different accent
 dance under security cameras (or tape a note to them that says ‘fuck you’)
 have a cart-race in walmart
 have a serious battle with some type of swords/light sabers in a public place
 spray paint a school bus
have an orgasm (sober)
 kiss/make out with someone of a different race than me